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Wings like the glory of battle (pt 2)

…Aaaaaand the second poll, which explains the title up there!

Some months ago, I saw an image of a fairy princess that ignited a fire in my brain. I can’t find the exact image anymore, but I remember the sight of it going through me like electricity as I thought: but why can’t she be brown?

How to articulate this feeling exactly? I can’t, right now; I’m not in a state for much words right now. But if you look at the images of fairies and princesses that dominate a simple Google search, you’ll see– so much paleness: alabaster complexions held up as a virtue, whiteness as a pinnacle of beauty and perfection. Even the non-white princesses and fairies one often sees are largely pale; it’s exceedingly rare to see a dark-skinned fairy princess, and if one ever does, odds are that they will be cast in a different light than the majority of princesses; less elegant or delicate or graceful, somehow more exotic.

So I wanted to change that. I wanted to make art centering a fairy princess with enormous sparkly wings and elaborate headgear and robes and ridiculous long flowing hair. And she would be dark-skinned, kayumanggi, just like me.

And of course, because this is me, she had to be holding an unsheathed sword, on her way to battle. (To defend her territory from encroaching Kastila invaders — see, there’s actually a whole story behind this.)

So, for my very first Kasama/$25+ tier poll, I wanted to ask you all — to pick the motif I should feature on my princess’s wings and robes. Generally, the motif of her ornaments; whether she’s a princess of the stars or a princess of the deep places of the earth, or part of the royalty of water and fire.

Please pick the option you like best! I’ll be holding this poll open for a month. (I want to start work on this art piece sooner, but… it’s not going to happen, I have deadlines for stuff I need to finish first.)

What should be the motif for the fairy princess's robes, crown, and wings?

  • Flowers: chrysanthemum, lilies of the valley, orchids, peonies, dama de noche, ilang-ilang (100%, 1 Votes)
  • Stars: constellations, starbursts, sunrays, geometric patterns, intricate weaving (0%, 0 Votes)
  • Gems: complex jewel settings and layers of beading, spirals and mandalas of carved gold (0%, 0 Votes)
  • Fire and water: flowing shapes of rivers and flames, brightly coloured ribbons of movement (0%, 0 Votes)

Total Voters: 1

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Wings like the glory of battle (pt 1)

Dear companions and friends, hello!

As I may have mentioned before, my family — especially my mother — are going through a horrible time right now (it’s been rough for the past seven years, but it has gotten massively worse for the past several months). Things are about to get much, much more horrible soon, and so if I’m a little short on words, please forgive me.

I have a couple of polls for you today. One will be for everyone at the $5+ tier and up, for the doodle of the month; another will be for everyone at $25 tier (!!!) to ask about something very specific about my next major personal (ie un-commissioned) piece (!!!). Exciting!

Onward to the poll! For the monthly doodle, here are some words that are very dear to me; they were integral to my study in physics, which was my first academic love. Let’s try and see what I doodle based on the top two words!

(This poll will end in a week, meaning I’ll post the April doodle at the end of the first week of May.)

Pick two words for my April doodle!

  • momentum (33%, 1 Votes)
  • dark energy (33%, 1 Votes)
  • singularity (33%, 1 Votes)
  • velocity (0%, 0 Votes)
  • turbulence (0%, 0 Votes)
  • strangeness (0%, 0 Votes)

Total Voters: 2

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I should remember to rewatch this video when I feel myself flagging; when exhaustion and despair take over.

Yes Rabbi, the future is dark, on this watch night, I close my eyes and I see the darkness of my grandfather’s cell. And I can feel the spirit of ever rising optimism (in the Sikh tradition ‘Chardi Kala’) within him. So the mother in me asks, ‘What if? What if this darkness is not the darkness of the tomb, but the darkness of the womb?…. What is this is our country’s great transition? – Valarie Kaur

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In darkness, light.